So...I woke up in a pretty good mood. Catching a few seconds between morning routine stuff, I quickly checked our voicemail only to discover our son had left a message for having to do homework club AGAIN. So...I asked him a in rather loud voice why he had homework club. (this is becoming a weekly thing). Then...of course, I approached his father (my son has now become the son of his father) asking why he has not followed up on this and why our son keeps having homework club. A quick step back in time...my husband and I had agreed a while ago that he would monitor and help our son stay on track with school/homework. Ok..current time...so in directing my frustration at my husband...I was pointing out that apparently the consequences he has enforced is probably not enough cuz it's not working. So...it's now become my son and my husband's fault. But really what it boiled down to in my mind....it's my fault for not being home more...for not being the mom I want/am suppose to be. That's the real reason (isn't it).
Okay...so...I didn't handle my morning very well...leaving the house to head to my full-time job...I was full of guilt about how poorly I handled the situation. Then, of course, I couldn't stop there...I had to feel guilty about how I treated my poor innocent husband, how I fail daily as a mom, how I am now basically an Accounts receive/payable, errand girl, occasional cleaner to my family. That is what I have felt that it has come down to with me working full-time. So..the spiral had begun!!
So...I thought I better reach out (not one of my strong suits) to find out how other working mom's handle...well...EVERYTHING..that we feel we are suppose to do as mother (and wife, where applicable). I certainly feel like I am the only insane mother/wife that has lost her absolute cool and perspective...so help me out...how do you do it? Do you ever lose your cool/sanity?
I am hoping through this blog that I might get( and maybe help others to get) to a "guilt free" zone in being a working mom!
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